Everyday happens with a story..
Friday, June 20, 2008
3:00 PM
Hiazzzzz... alot of things happen this week. and i really tried to escape the facts of it. was having chalet the past 3days many funs and laughter many pissed off and sad stuff .. not really going to say much about chalet because i really don know how to say infact. Hiazzzzz... You'll nvr know what will happen next , i tot i would have the best moments with him at the chalet but things turns out other way. today wakeup very early and play audition .. have a new couple but we are just simple frens . play till now haha. was damn tired so tried to update my blog becuase my blog look so half dead .. i today found out something that i was just being silly on myself. lol. or maybe they nvr tell me about it? lol.. martin and his gf break? lol. it was shocking... maybe to all of you it isnt but to me is very shocking.. lol because his the Tionxim Never Die Man .. lol.. so i thought they will be more longer thn anyone else lol. And i want to clarify not that i like him back and say that is just that i was shocking . lol ! Hmmmm and i found out something not really found out but actually know why i treat alfred so mean and high expectation. i realise that i actually use him and compare martin. LOL! i don mind saying out now because since its over why cant i say out. and somemore is my BLOG! lol... i realise why i ask him to spike hair nt really because of hongyi they all keep saying him but actually because martin love his hair alot lol .. 1st compare le .. lol. i changed alfred clothing style because martin clothing style looks like him when i change him. 2nd compare le. i actually used alfred to become him? lol.. how silly i am? but seriously my heart is dead! i don like martin anymore i swear. i actually just using his style and change alfred lol.. Yeah i agree i actually cant forget him maybe because when during chalet i actually think back of him? lol.. i tot we promise each other to forget each other? HAHA.. thats funny... -.-" But now than i still cant forget him completely. hiazzzzzzz... let fate decide..... if time can rewind i wish i can change alot of stuff that i doneee... likeeee i could have care him much thn giving him cold shoulder? lol... when he going malaysia i shouldnt say anything to him? that make him think i don care about him at all? maybe is my fault maybe is i'm unlucky that day to cut my hand and say that word? lol.. and when we tried to talk things out i should have say continue? lol.. maybe nott.. maybe yes? lol. maybe i'm just trying to test him to see will he try to salvage this matter. What i did to him may be too mean but isnt it all for his good? maybe he wont know maybe he just think all this equals to high expectation on him? lol.. actually when i think back all this stuff i'm still laughing? lol because of my silly acts that causes all this to happen... i told myself i can forget him like i did to martin escaping and avoiding now than i realise is just so LAME and no use at all... lol.. but atleast i know we did love each other before than nothing ... although we cant be stead .. why not be friends? lol... i dun wish to lose a friend that treat me so good LAST TIME lol.... and atleast i know i tried to save the problem by smsing him i forget which date but i was at amk hub. i told him ... eh i forgetten wad i say LOL. oh ya since i nth to do i dun mind saying out here LOL. i rmb wad i ask him. (i think so)
"Where you?" : " I now at hospital.. goin back"
"Why you at hospital wor?" : "My bro 2morrow operation la.. dun ask why"
"I see.. i oso nvr ask why?" : "U wont see me for a very long time anyway"
"why?? wad happen?" : "I granting u yr wish mah.u dun wan talk or see me and dun wan me go sch fine lor."
"I'm just yi qi zhixia than say wrong things ba le..." : "Suan le ba u wan me forget u and u wan forget me.now i trying
"aiyaaa since you wan forget , forget lor !" : "Fine.."
"walaooo i really don know what to say le .. " : "Forget me bah.. i uselss everything my fault"
"i oso nvr say everything ur fault .. yes i have fault too but i nvr say uselesss toooo?" : ".. 2day just let me think.. i really no mood.2morrow is a major operation i worrying abt my bro now.. u wan u can msg me but i might not reply"
Aiyaaaaa enough liao dunwan continue say only make me angry and upset LOL! anywae was just roughly say through the reply are correct that he send wad i say i forget le... atleast i talk to him nicely before we ended it all.. i think we both agree that Is Over liao.. LOL. i rmb a show say : "Mummy .. is over!" lol the funny joke show.. hahaa.. so same as us we are overrrrrr.. hahahaha.. i'm just saying all the past lol... anywaeeee he really promise me alot of thingsss... he really do promise alot of things... watch movie , go chalet , bearbear , my wishlist and alot.. but he did nothing of it.. i don really expect everything that he could have done. and i don really expect him to think i have high expectation. but everytime wad we think doesnt means it will always follow how ur wish go.. whenever u wish for something the wish will go for other thing.. no matter how much i say now.. it wont turn back you see.. so just look positive don think i'm emo-ing lol. im jus abit sad and abit dissapointed and abit too tired x.x before we were quarreling i told him my after holidays plan lol.. but i guess is nth nowwww..
After Holidays Plan :
Mon: {3pm-5pm} Subject:Humanities ( Geography & Social Studies)
Tue: {4pm-5pm} Subject:Design & Technology
Wed: {4pm-5pm} Subject:English (Memorise Composition And Newspaper)
Thur: {3pm-5pm} Subject:Science (Chemistry & Physics)
Fri: {2pm-5pm} Subject:Mathematics (Practice All Chapters From Sec1 To Sec4)
Sat: {Anytime} Subject:English (Read Story Book)
Sun: {-} Rest Time :D
Abit toooo crazy uh my plan LOL.. but all this is past~
Anywaeeeee ppl say we will nvr quarrel.. lol like i say you'll nvr know what will happen later haahahaha...
*Alfred.. all the best to you ! Hope you will really find a girl better than meeee.. i think i'm just not suitable for you.. and Its Over .. hahaha.. thanks for all the things you done for me i really treasure the things and moments you given to meee... if time will rewind and you ask me that sentence again i will say yes hahaha... thanks for teaching me how to play maple? lol. anywaeee i really don like maple because of you i've actually play but infact i swear that i will nvr play maple orelse something will happen.. haha.. and i actually pon school because of you too.. lol.. maybe you think i've done nothing for you but all this is done for you. i have no regrets at all.. still rmb the time we at cinema.. and the time we tgt say don know.. haha.. great moments.. thanks for all the promise you done for meeeee.. i really appreciate alott.. alott.. maybee you tot im just want you to do stuff for me actually i'm not.. i just wish you will treasure urself.. wadever you do i will always support you. when ever u told me about maple stuff i will always tried to control myself and tried to talk abt this topics everytimeeee.. but infact i've know nothing about maple ... Yes i agree you did play audition for meee but ur intrest were not there and i know it very clearly but i dun mind at all.. i told you i'll forget you .. actually is all lies.. i cant forget you.. because i realise once the things lost and you cant get back it anymore the feeling don feels good at all.. because i really need you alot....! my heart sinks when you were not by my side.... and why i didnt say this befr things happen because i still cant confirm do i really like you but now i know i am.. i'm sorry all the attitude and stuff i've given to you.. but so did you give me attitude... I'm sorry i didnt told you about my past and that before i realise i like you i still kept the secret tht i love martin before or maybe you've know before but i was once love martin alottt.... i did a hpstrap for him but it was last time and i'm sorry i did nth for you. but actually if we did nt quarrel i actually wanting to do something like i did to martin .. But everything is just too late .. all the fault lays on meeeeee... and I'm Sorry...~ I just hope you'll treasure urself , workhard for your studies don worry about wad i say to you that i dunwan see you anymore i will just try to avoid myself not to see you. i just hope u treasure ur future come to sku and workhard even if you wan to go ITE i'll support you but you still have to study hard i hope you could have done it... Goodluck alfred goh. hahaa.... loves......<3
