Hiaz. Just back from night study and fiona house? hmmmm.. glad that sheryl and hsien ern is back to normal. Anyway, people always doesnt treasure things when the things is close to you. But have anyone knows when the things is lost from you and you want it back its going to be impossible .. During night study edward was teaching me and yumi anyway Thanks Edward! atleast i know something about chemistry of periodic table. Hahas.. Quite easy actually ermm i not smart ahhh just wish my chemistry will pass can le :) Hope so! After night study went to fiona house while her mum came pick us up than have dinner and dessert than was watching crime watch and talking to their family than went back home and talking with fiona when on the way to bus-stop. Than went home bath and online lo.. Anyway .. has he ever know that i've being helping him sms-ed my friends about the examination centre and in the end he say he didnt want to take because the guard only open the gate at 2pm? -.- Hiaz.. I try my best to help him find the place but he didnt even want to take the test. Is this all he wanted? slacking life? Hiaz. i cant be bother anymore because i've got more better things to do.. so what if i still have feeling for him? whats the point? No more.. I don't hope time can rewind because is impossible i cant do anything to it either. I can only hope time go faster.. Finish Nlevel and chiong for work than have money to buy things and put braces. Do you think i'm that foolish that i believe him that he will accompany me and go put? Come on.. Is just making me happy for nothing -.- i rather go myself.. anyway prom night i don decide to go either.. whats the point when he's not mine i want to go last time because i thought i can persuade him to go with me. Now everything just demolish. I don want to think much just chiong for prelim and Nlevel than chiong for working because of money !! :X Ahhhh.. time can go faster !!!! faster that i can never see him that i can never think of him. Never miss him .. Bestie??? Haha.. -.- what a good name and what a good reality that i can escape. Hiaz.. i've givenup. The more i think only make myself more sad whats the point? Do you know whats my definition of love now?
Believe in jesus!
Believe in yourself.
Not to think of him.
Concerntrade studies.
Determine is the most important of my motivation.
No more tears rolled down my eye.
Because of you i've give up alot of things.
Because of you i realise there is something called future for me.
Because of you and thanks to you i found my goals of life.
I've let you go out of my life and my heart because of you.
For you i willing to give everything up.
If you think this is the best than let me tell you,
I'll be right beside you everytime.
When nobody is around for you remember,
My heart will always with you.
Because every minute and seconds i'm thinking of you.
Although i'm not with you but my soul is with you.
I concern of everything of what you do.
We may not be like the past,
But for you i will do it willing,
Pray for your safety and studies and health and your dream girl will come to you soon.
For your happiness i'm willing to sacrifice myself :)
I'll always stay by your side just remember me.
Because i'll never forget you.
For you and me, I'll be strong :)