Hias. I'm very sad , i've no mood .. I know sheryl sms me and yumi call me, sorry i don't feel like replying or answer your call although i'm not busy i just cant face the reality that i've fail and going to ite because it don't feel good.. My parents ask me to decide myself they didnt scold me because is okay for me to take longer road to poly but i just cant take the facts i hate it! I scare once i went in ite my life will go different , i scare i will go worst instead.. I don't need any encouragement because is the still same it will never change .. Everytime i think about it tears always roll down.. i just don't wanna fail. While posting i'm crying because i'm just too dissapointed by myself seriously i don't want to go ite life .. neither any life but sec 5.. But it will never change still.. Girlfriends i guess christmas you all have to celebrate beyond yourself , i will just go MIA wait till taking cert but we may not seeing each other when taking cert either.. You all may scold me i'm foolish or what you all can come find me at tangs i can hide i can do whatever just don't need to spend the effort to find me , call me , sms or what . I never intend to giveup but i hope you all just give myself some time and you all some time .. i just need time because now i cant just believe the facts .. Sorry girlfriends, i will treat you all as girlfriends never forget the times we have spend together.. I trust you all will do well in sec5 workhard i will be behind and support you all.. I dont bear to leave you all but thats the only way i can do.. I'm sad to do this but .. this is the better choice for me , you and everyone .. Im crying trust me i dont wish to this but i have to .. sorry ~ Just give me some time please ..